If you love your woman then make sure you remember that after so many lies, even “white lies” can kill everything about your relationship. If you don’t love her that’s another story, but lying in general is never good.
Women are amazing to deal with. Even more interesting when you lie. They withdraw from you and the romance will fade if you continue to hurt the woman you say you love. If you love her and can’t seem or want to tell her the truth then let that be your truth and catch ghost.
Make sure you know what you want in this life. This can be one of the main reasons for your lying. Know what you want and choose not to let anything stop you from going to get that. Keep your honor and be true to who you are. If you want this woman stay real and let nothing keep you from staying that way.